some... positivity? 2003-02-24 - 5:47 p.m.
I just took the best nap ever in the history of naps. It wasn't even under a desk (how I hate that show). I put on Elgar's "Enigma Variations", which I have loved since I saw another marching band do that in ninth grade, and drifted off sometime after "Nimrod". That movement is just so beautiful.
Anyway, the flute teacher at the grad school I want to go to called me this afternoon. She said I didn't have to re-apply, and therefore I don't have to re-audition either. I don't know much about the inner workings of these things, but that has to mean something good. They still like me that much, on the basis of an audition that happened over a year ago? Now I've got a flute diva-esque ego like the rest of them, but seriously, I'm not *that* good. Maybe there just aren't any new grad students auditioning for this year. She already has a grad assistant for her studio, so there's no added competition there. I dunno. I just dunno. But I guess this means that I need to get off my ass and do two things: 1) re-apply for financial aid, which, as it is kind of late in the year to do that, is no real biggie, because they'd only be giving me loans anyway and 2) apply for housing/look for an apartment/whatever- my lack of motivation (and overabundance of procrastination in its place) to do so in August was probably one reason I didn't go away then. I mean, eeek, this school is far away, and this makes my quiet little sheltered self quite scared. But I've got to do it! Argh!
*cue major internal battle right.... now!*
Oh, somebody from work called this afternoon too. So I split my hours on Saturday with her. But I got the earlier half- 8-12. Although if I get there again and the doors are still locked, I will seriously consider just walking home the two miles from Sears-mall. Because, argh! Anyway, work tomorrow 11-6 and then off again Wednesday. I guess I'll live.
Please contain your jealousy of my exciting life. Thank you. Heh.